alright

this is going to be

a lot more difficult

than i originally

thought.

oh but Lord, i know. how can You refine me if everything is always easy/going my way?

Your purpose is so much greater and reaches to the most hideous and hidden corners of my heart. and that is what i want. clean me up, renew me again. make me like You. i want to learn to love. i want to bring You glory.

thank you for bearing with me through this.

can i just say

life feels full again.

distance your heart

let it grow cold

(or just indifferent)

then you won't hurt anymore.

the Lord is faithful

and He answers prayers...

(i don't think you understand how much those ten minutes or so just made my day.)

okay. backtoworknow.

even still

(psalms)

(9:9-10)

the Lord is a stronghold for the oppressed,

a stronghold in times of trouble.

and those who know Your name put their trust in You,

for You, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.

(16:1-2)

preserve me, O God, for in You i take refuge.

i say to the Lord,

"You are my Lord, i have no good apart from You."

(51:17)

the sacrifices of God are a broken and contrite spirit;

a broken and contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.

(56:10-13)

in God, Whose Word i praise,

in the Lord, Whose Word i praise,

in God i trust; i shall not be afraid

what can man do to me?

i must perform my vows to You, O God;

i will render thank offerings to You.

for You have delivered my soul from death,

yes, my feet from falling

that i may walk before God in the light of life.