and yes i still believe in You

"however, to the man who does not work but trusts God who justifies the wicked, his faith is credited to him as righteousness."

(romans 4:5)

i cannot work to be righteous.

i cannot earn my salvation.

i cannot do enough good to ensure my place in heaven or be right in God's eyes.

my good deeds, spiritual conversations, moral standards and strong convictions mean nothing

(absolutely nothing)

(worthless)

(rubbish)

(crap)

if my heart does not belong to Him,

if i have no faith in Him,

if i do not trust Him,

if i don't love Him.

i don't need to try and make this sound deeper or more profound than it is.

it's not.

it doesn't need to be.

i don't need to try and impress you.

i just want to love my Lord.

(may i love You more this year than i did in years previous and less than i will in years to come)