tonight

i looked through it all once more

(a couple times)

"it's Yours, Lord"

(i'm Yours, too)

then i let it go.

i'm going to be doing a lot of that lately, i think

and it actually hurts, still

less than i expected it to

but more than i wanted it to.

but i can't think about that now.

i have to go do homework with a girl in another room

and put emotions aside, get serious again

i feel like throwing up the burrito i ate two hours ago

(i probably shouldn't have done so in the first place)

and honestly, as much as i love

these girls/my school/professors/major/location

i want to leave here, so badly

i want to be done

i miss my family

and i want to start over

again.