this week the trend was to not wake up till three pm (i picked the few conscious hours that i chose to spend and slept away the rest of them) and this week the trend was to crash and burn and then return again; to practice the life that i pretend provides enough to get me through the week(end)

so i say, "get me a solution, and watch me run with it" and then You gave- You gave me a solution; what have i done with it?

(cause i was absolutely sure i had it all figured out way back then)

and now it's this minute, this hour, this day and this week the trend was to backstab every single one of my friends and leave a voicemail message trying to make amends all the while hoping things work out in the end

and this week the trend was to borrow all the strength that You could lend to keep my head above the water and not descend back to where i said i'd never go again

so i say, "get me a solution, and watch me run with it" and then You gave - You gave me a solution; what have i done with it?

(cause i was absolutely sure i had it all figured out way back then)

but after this day it's this week all over again

AND I JUST WANT TO GET MUGGED AT KNIFEPOINT TO GET CUT ENOUGH TO WAKE ME UP because i know that i don't want to die sitting around watching my life go by and what we take from this is what we'll get and we haven't quite figured it out just yet because all of us are all too stuck strapped to a chair watching our lives blow up